Watching

Watching

I sit there and watch
As people walk by
With the lack of control
They begin to cry

My mind plays games
And tells me that I’m not
Worthy of this sorrow
But grief’s all I got

Will this loss make a difference?
Will he shed any tears?
Even though he hasn’t spoken
In so many years

Will she think it’s her fault
And think there were signs
Or will she believe
It was a matter of time

I stand up
And begin walking around
As I see the coffin
Lowered into the ground

I take one final glance
At the people leaving
Wondering if
They’re really deceiving
Their own minds
Pretending that they care
But feeling the guilt
And struggling to bear

All of these people
I wonder if they see
That the pathetic girl laying there
Is actually me