Tuesday, May 20, 2008


You hide in fear,
what will I think of you?
A coward?
A fiend?

Why try to tell me,
And remove your feelings?
Insecurity is a blessing on my behalf,
but on yours it is a curse.

I am no longer afraid,
Never again will I be.
Your pathetic excuses
are no longer my burden.

Your manipulative ways
will never again
pull me down to your level


Maria said...

This is a little... convoluted, I guess is the best word I could find.

Again, I'm a little confused about who's the one who is afraid. Are you trying to say that both the narrator and the person the narrator is addressing once feared one another?

The whole insecurity business is confusing too, in that I don't completely understand what you are trying to get across to "The Reader". I get that it's a poem to a traitorous former friend, but I don't fully comprehend what it is you are trying to say to this person.

Bela said...

Good word, Maria! Actually, yes this can be rather confusing if read in a different context. The narrator once feared the person being addressed, but now it is the person being addressed that is fearing the narrator, but in a different way. Make sense? I hope so!
Basically, I am trying to say that I'm done. No more pain, no more confusion. (Yes, confusion was a big theme in this poem.) Again, you were completely right when you found the theme of the poem!!! Great job and I hope I helped!!!

Gina said...

This reminds me of scenes in old movies when the person who was holding the knife/gun/sword/etc. has it turned on them by the person they're fighting against, and the new holder of the weapon is suddenly holding all the power. I think a lot of your poems are about power struggles, maybe more so than you know. *oooh, spooky!*

Bela said...

Power struggles normally can be a theme in my life, maybe that's how they come into my writing.

***See what I mean about putting your heart on paper?

I guess you have to be in my shoes to really feel what this is about, but it would come across like that to others...it is kind of spooky!!!

Thanks Gina!!!